About Emily

Emily has always been one of the important persons in my life. Even though we didn't communicate so often in the past years, I have never forgotten her besides her phone number and address. LOL~ I didn't mean it; it's just because I lost my address file. From the recent chats, I kind of figure out there are some misunderstandings between us...

When I heard that you were going abroad to study, the first thing came up to my mind was she was leaving me and I was totally shocked. At that moment, I didn't think I would study abroad someday as well. Indeed, I am the one who is working in the U.S. now. On the other hand, you said I was the one who didn't contact at all after I went to Tainan. I was afraid to contact you because I wasn't sure about your feeling, and also we never talked about our relationship. (Doesn't the concern you have take the biggest part of this? Only you care about it personally~)

If I were not the President of the graduating students association, I wouldn't know you; if you didn't accompany (well, kind of force) me to study in the library, I might not get in that school; if without you, I might not be here now.

You always only show the strong side of you in front of me; your profession make me admire you; you are very organized and clever; and most importantly, you care about me. But it's time to rely on me when you need help because I am no longer a kid. I worry about that you are there alone. Although you have Ema around, but sometimes it doesn't help. Since I am here alone, I understand this kind of feeling. Sometimes I really need a person to talk, someone like you.

You said, it is a pleasure to talk to me about the recent life and the past. I wanna tell you same here. And I really miss you. I will be waiting for your and Ema's coming.

By the way, I had my hair cut yesterday.

First Baking

Couple days ago, I had the first baking in my life: Blueberry Muffins. They are not only good-looking, but tasty. I ate only one of them; the rest of them all went to some people's stomachs. Hey my dear friends, I know you like the food I made, but could you please do not take orders when you still have my muffins on your hands? I wanna post a conversation from my friend here: "Oh! This is good, so what's the next flavor? You can try chocolate." Yen, that's you.

The other thing that is totally unexpected. "I want to eat this badly. Can you make this(a colored copy of recipe)?" Ge~~ Angela, am I your personal chef?

Since my first baking was quite successful, you may expect that I will bake again. How about lemon cheese cake? Orders are accepting now!

After a month working

Time is flying; time is a thief, Emily added. In the last month, a lot of things have changed. I became a full time city employee, moved to Astoria, went to a church the very first time in my life, waited several hours for a photo shoot, attended SBS agency picnic, and got depressed a lot as well.

Fortunately, my two friends - Yen and Angela - are always be with me during my depression period. Perhaps they didn't discover my depression till I told them yesterday. Apparently I seem to be a normal me, but I can't be happy from inside; I feel so lost...

Emily recommended me to go to a church for experience long time ago, but because I am a atheist, I didn't feel want to go. Since I didn't want to go home right after work, I went to a church with the two friends last week. The church is different from what I usually see on TV or movies. Yen told me it is because before it became a church, it was a theater. As I observed the service and the songs they were singing, I came up a conclusion: they are really passion for in what they believe. It is also quite amazing that the songs with simple lyrics, and even just repeating, can bring all the believers' heart together. The power of religion is really strong no matter which one. However, I only believe in myself.